So beautiful, nothing could fade your beauty in my eyes. Was caught by surprise at the passion and the fire that you ignited in between my thighs. Loud cries of excitement, pleasure, and fear escaped my lips and landed softly on your ears. I was hooked, a fiend addicted to you. But neither one of us knew the trouble and pain we would put one another through. Jealousy, betrayal, hurt, confusion, it all happened so fast. But neither one of us could fully ever really escape our past. We tried and we tried, neither one of us ever even told a lie. But that didn’t stop the tears from forming in our eyes. We fixed what we thought was broken by breaking our relationship off and becoming friends on the outside. But even as friends our bodies answered one another’s cries. I told myself over and over again that it could never work, for wherever we went your ex girlfriend or even a standard groupie was sure to be lurking. My heart didn’t listen, my mind didn’t care, and my body damn sure wasnt about to let go of its only pleasure. You knew just how to touch me, kiss me, savour every inch of my body and made it yours. You wrote ya name on my walls and made sure i only fit you. Even if I wanted to fuck around I couldn’t because my body only loved you. tried to keep it pur physical and not let my heart interfere. You were scared of taking those steps again with anyone for fear of getting hurt was just not an option for you. I tried and I tried to show you that I would never be like those others, but instead of letting you breath i began to smother. Never thought I would have the strength to walk away. Just then orders came and said that I couldn’t stay. We counted the days until I would have to leave you. And that last day you signed to me “I love You’. I took those words and buried them deep where the memory of your touch, smell, kiss, laugh, and smile all lay buried. I thought if we both tried and stayed ourselves then hey we just might make it. I devised a plan to get back to you as soon as I could. but life a bitch and she wasnt playing by my rules. Something came over me…fear is what i take it as. It crept inside me for the first time and made me look like an ass. I tripped, i fell, i stumbled into that crazy bitch that you knew wasnt for you. I tried to regain my myself but it was too late you had already made up your mind and said “tee I’m through”. So now sit here alone with nothing but distant memories of how we use to be. Knowing that is me not life who pushed you away from me. Wanted nothing more than to give you a ring and make you my queen. But my own insecurities came by and stomped on that dream. I don’t dream of nights beside you anymore. For me that door has been shut and “do not enter” is all i see. but from behind that locked door i can still hear the moans from me as you lay me down, kiss my neck and tell me everything about me belongs to you. But the guard at the door pushes me back and says “hey she said she’s through”. So I’ll hang my head and slowly walk away, letting the regret slide down my face in the form of hot tears. Knowing that this was my greatest fear and I turned it into a reality. Just want you to be happy, whether it’s me or them. Damn I can’t believe that I’m here again. wanted to give you anything that your heart desired. But im weary and my heart is tired. I need you to rest my head on your chest and caress my face till i fall asleep. That’s how we’re supposed to be Myka and Tee. I don’t believe that we were put together not to be together is what Dondria would say, but I’m coming to you as women admitting my mistakes. Dont let this be the last chapter in our black erotica book. Lets get us back before it’s too late. Please Myka dont through my love for you away.
My Last Chance
